Wow! It’s been a while since I’ve sat down to write. As many of you know already I’ve just come to the end of a very difficult pregnancy. From the very beginning Caleb and I were attacked physically. It started with a month of bleeding which the Lord healed. Then severe abdominal pain which was also healed.
Then it was contractions which were treated with medicine, but got worse. Then at 30 weeks I went to the hospital with very painful contractions and while I was there my water broke. The doctors and nurses were sure that he would be born that night, but were trying to prevent it. They even had a neonatal nurse come and tell us what to expect with a premature baby.
They gave me some very strong medicine to stop the labor and at one point they gave me to much. I remember looking at the nurse and saying, “I’m going to pass out now.” And then I passed out. I saw a white light that grew larger and brighter and I was sure I was gone. I remember the only thing I could think was to pray. And all I said in that prayer was “We are in Your hands.” Soon I heard the nurse calling my name, but it took me a while to be able to respond.
Once I was stabilized the doctor told me that because my water had broken I would have to stay in the hospital for the rest of my pregnancy. And we prayed. And we asked for prayer. And God’s people prayed. Two days later I was no longer leaking. A few days after that I had an ultrasound done by a specialist and he found no evidence that my water had broken at all! And a few days after that my doctor sent me home to spend the rest of the pregnancy on bedrest.
After a week in the hospital I lasted 6 more weeks on bedrest at home before my water broke again at about 11 pm on July 14. Caleb was born by C-section at 6:40 am on July 15, 2010. He was technically 3 weeks early, but is perfect. He was 19 inches long and weighed 7 lbs 4 oz, which is actually the heaviest baby I’ve had. As I look back on this difficult time I can see so clearly the hand of God working on my and Caleb’s behalf. The healing that took place is undeniable. And as I look at my beautiful sleeping baby I can see that His work is perfect. In my moments of weakness His strength was evident. How can I not give Him praise and trust him in all things?
He is the Rock, his works are perfect, and all his ways are just. A faithful God who does no wrong, upright and just is he.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9